I Get Lost In It All

I get lost in it all. I get lost in the day to day menial tasks, the running here and there, the never ending To-do list.  Life has become a blur.

I get lost in it all.  I rush my daughter through her morning tasks, out the door, cleaning up her never ending pile of toys, bedtime, and repeat. Rush, rush, rush.  I witness her life through my camera lens but I don’t see her, not really. I used to sit and watch her sleep, fascinated by the little being in front of me.  Now I stare at her through pictures and sometimes wish I’d been in that moment instead of an outside spectator.

I get lost in it all.  I try to be everything to everyone, daughter, wife, mother, employee, blogger.  When I dare to stop and see my reflection in the mirror, really see my reflection not just blankly stare as I apply makeup I’m shocked at who I see.  She’s a stranger to me.  When did I become a stranger to myself?  I want to know this woman, but maybe the reason that I don’t really see her is because I’m scared of what I might discover.

I get lost in it all.  Life. Motherhood. Work.  How do I learn to navigate my way out so that I really see what’s around me, to be a part of all of this and not just someone standing behind the literal and figurative lens?

How do we stop being on the outside looking in on our lives?

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4 thoughts on “I Get Lost In It All

  1. I can really relate to this. It’s so easy to get caught up in never ending lists, and all of our energy and thoughts gravitate toward our to-dos. I’m making a real effort to be present, to stop focusing on all that needs to be done and start focusing on small moments with my family.

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    1. I need to find ways to disconnect from everything and be more present as well. I’m reminding myself to put everything down and just be with my family. It’s a work in progress. 😊 Thanks for your comment and for the Follow!

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  2. I think we can start not being on the outside by shutting down and being quiet with ourselves and family. Have a family game night – no TV, laptop, social media. It is surprising how much time can be sucked up just checking emails, social media etc. Maybe putting all the pictures into a scap book together and writing captions with the pictures. My input to the questions. Enjoyed the post.

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